The prodigal blogger has returned. Thanks to “Brain’s” public antagonizing I finally feel guilty enough to post something…well that, and I also have good news! I officially have a volunteer position in Yei! It is with an organization called HealthNet TPO. It is based in the Netherlands and from what Brian has told me, it is a very well-respected organization. Here’s a little blurb from their website:
“HealthNet TPO is a knowledge-driven, non-profit organization that works in areas disrupted by war, disasters and poverty. Working together with local populations we channel emergency aid into sustainable health care development.
We train and encourage the local population to carry out initiatives that combat disease, provide psychosocial care, restore infrastructure and strengthen organizational systems.
HealthNet TPO will offer innovative and unconventional solutions that foster self-reliance and promote sustainable health care.”
For more information on who they are and what they do, their web address is: http://www.healthnetinternational.org/HealthnetTPO(EN)So that was extremely good news today. Brian has been working hard with all the stuff on his plate and on top of that he has been sending my resume out to a bunch of places trying to find a position for me! Apparently HealthNet’s office is a 15 minute walk from where we are living and it sounds like it’s going to be a great experience. I’m really looking forward to working with them.
Part of the reason I haven’t felt exactly inspired to write is because I feel that I am in funny place in this transition. I have started to say goodbye to family and friends and these goodbyes have caused me to ask, “How do I walk away?”
I’ve felt that if I blog about all of the mental and emotional processes I’ve had, it would be the “Debby Downer” blog and you would all say very nice things to encourage me. But there are so many sides to my emotions at any given moment. I am always sad to say goodbye to those I love; those whom have become a part of who I am. But in those moments I am simultaneously more anxious to see my husband, to begin this adventure, and to have a beginning for every ending.
Today Bordertown had a little Good-bye party for Sarah and I (Sarah has been baking at Bordertown since the beginning and she is two weeks away from having her first baby!). It is so emotional for me to think about walking away from a season of life that has been so sweet, so challenging, and so beautiful. As customers came in to say good bye I had to consciously focus on being in the moment with each person I spoke with. If I would have allowed myself to take a step back and look at what was going on, I would have cried the whole time. All of the people at Bordertown, coworkers and customers alike, have become a part of me; a part of my identity. A few customers talked about the sense of belonging there, almost like family. And it is so true.
I have felt so safe and at home with my family (both immediate and at large) and I don’t know myself very well without them. Who am I without you?….I guess I get to find out!
Sarah has been in the habit of starting every morning at Bordertown with a little Ella Fitzgerald action. The song that became my anthem today was a duet with Ella and Louis Armstrong called “They Can’t Take That Away From Me” (look it up… it’s fantastic). I decided that everything I am stepping away from will always be a part of me. That made it a little easier to think about walking away.
*Thanks to everyone who stopped in today…it means so much!